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11月8日

亲爱的老爸,生日快乐!

亲爱的老爸
您还记得吗
那年我离家的脚步
身后,是你长长的目光
一如现在的我
在异国他乡的守望

都说母爱是无私的
父爱是深沉的
爸爸的爱没有妈妈那么外露
但总能給我深深的感动

今天是你的生日
不能与你围着烛光轻轻地合拍吟唱
不能为你斟满红酒细细地品味馨香
只能柔指轻敲点点文字
送出我最真挚的祝福
愿您和妈妈
健健康康 平平安安
快快乐乐 美美满满
一年比一年
过的年轻,
活的精彩!

还有,老爸您笑起来很有魅力,要笑口常开哦!














10月9日

许愿

《许愿 梁咏琪 古巨基》-梁咏琪

梁:我喜欢回味
记忆的美
让人懂得感谢
古:你现在让谁
听你喜悦
陪你掉眼泪
嘿好久不见
合:请你许个愿
古:要感情不再那么容易变
合:让心不被距离拉得太遥远
古:我寄了张卡片
合:地址是感觉
收件人叫永远
像是你又递来一杯热咖啡
生活有了你的温柔调味
合:画你的笑脸
写祝福的留言
请把我的名字默念一百遍
好梦就会趁你睡醒实现
古:我习惯感觉
记忆的美
能让温柔不灭
梁:你现在让谁
吻你的脸
疼你的一切
嘿好久不见
梁:要感情不再那么容易变
梁:我寄了张卡片
9月28日

In the waiting

In the Waiting
Vicki Yohe on her CD "I just want you"
 
Pain, the gift nobody
Longs for still it comes
Somehow leaves us
Stronger when it's gone away.
Pray, I try and pray
For your will to be done.
But I confess it's never
Fast enough for me.
 
It seems the hardest part
Is waiting on you.
When what I really want
Is just to see your hand move.
 
I want a peace beyond my understanding.
I want to feel it fall like rain
In the middle of my hurting.
I want to feel your arms as they surround me.
And let me know that it's okay
To be here in this place.
Resting in the peace that only comes
In the waiting.
 
Time, time to let it go and just believe.
Trusting in what no one else but you can see.
Free, freedom from the fears that
Close me in when I can't beyond where I have been.
But then again the silence
Doesn't mean that I'm alone.
As long as I can hear
That I'm still your own.
9月17日

Definition of love

Love is patient and is kind;
love doesn't envy.
Love doesn't brag, is not proud,
doesn't behave itself inappropriately,
doesn't seek its own way,
is not provoked, takes no account of evil;
doesn't rejoice in unrighteousness,
but rejoices with the truth;
bears all things, believes all things,
hopes all things, endures all things.

Love never fails.

(Corinthians 13: 4-8)

爱的定义

爱是恒久忍耐,又有恩慈;
爱是不嫉妒,爱是不自夸,不张狂,
不做害羞的事,不求自己的益处,
不轻易发怒,不计算人的恶,
不喜欢不义,只喜欢真理;
凡事包容,凡事相信,
凡事盼望,凡事忍耐。

爱是永不止息。 
 
8月16日

I hope you dance

This was written by an 83-year-old woman to her friend.

*The last line says it all. *

Dear Bertha,

I'm reading more and dusting less. I'm sitting in the yard and admiring the view without fussing about the weeds in the  garden. I'm spending more time with my family and friends and less time working.

Whenever possible, life should be a pattern of experiences to savor, not to endure. I'm trying to recognize these moments now and cherish them.

I'm not "saving" anything; we use our good china and crystal for every special event such as losing a pound, getting the sink unstopped, or the first Amaryllis blossom.

I wear my good blazer to the market. My theory is if I look prosperous, I can shell out $28.49 for one small bag of groceries. I'm not saving my good perfume for special parties, but wearing it for clerks in the hardware store and tellers at the bank.

"Someday" and "one of these days" are losing their grip on my vocabulary. If it's worth seeing or hearing or doing, I want to see and hear and do it now

I'm not sure what others would've done had they known they wouldn't be here for the tomorrow that we all take for granted. I think they would have called family members and a few close friends. They might have called a few former friends to apologize and mend fences for past squabbles. I like to think they would have gone out for a Chinese dinner or for whatever their favorite food was.

I'm guessing; I'll never know.

It's those little things left undone that would make me angry if I knew my hours were limited. Angry because I hadn't written certain letters that I intended to write one of these days. Angry and sorry that I didn't tell my husband and parents often enough how much I truly love them. I'm trying very hard not to put off, hold back, or save anything that would add laughter and luster to our lives. And every morning when I open my eyes, tell myself that it is special.

Every day, every minute, every breath truly is a gift from God.

If you received this, it is because someone cares for you. If you're too busy to take the few minutes that it takes right now to forward this, would it be the first time you didn't do the little thing that would make a difference in your relationships? I can tell you it certainly won't be the last.

Take a few minutes to send this to a few people you care about, just to let them know that you're thinking of them.

"People say true friends must always hold hands, but true friends don't need to hold hands because they know the other hand will always be there."

Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we are here we might as well dance

  

 

6月19日

Motto

Read these statements every day until they become part of your thinking

 

1.                        I am unique and precious human being, always doing the best I can, always growing in wisdom and love.

2.                        I don’t need to prove myself to anyone---not even to myself---for I know that I am perfectly fine as I am.

3.                        I make my own decisions and assume responsibility for any mistakes. However, I refuse to feel shame or guilt about them. I do the best I can, and that is 100 percent good enough.

4.                        I am not my actions. I am the actor. My actions may be good or bad. That doesn’t make me good or bad.

5.                        Whenever I am tempted to punish myself, I remember to be kind and gently instead. I know that is order to be the best I can be, I need forgiveness and understanding.

6.                        I know that it is okay to need. I try to keep in touch with my needs so that I can respond to them.

7.                        I know that others cannot be expected to read my mind or to guess my needs. In fairness to them and to me, I ask for what I need.

8.                        I deserve to be appreciated. When others show their appreciation, I embrace it with open arms. I never try to deny or diminish my value.

9.                        I live one day at a time and do first things first.

10.                    I take great pride in what I do, in what I value, and in the way I live, for I truly believe in myself.

11.                    My mistakes and nonsuccess do not make me a louse, a failure, or whatever. They only prove that I am imperfect, that is, human. It’s wonderful to be human.

12.                    I love myself, absolutely and unconditionally, for that is what I truly need and deserve.

6月9日

Reaching New Heights

Charles Haddon Spurgeon-"Oh, there is, in comtemplating Christ, a balm for every wound; inmusing on the Father, there is a quietus for every grief; and in the influence of the Holy Ghost, there is a balsam for every sore. Would you lose your sorrows? Would you drown your cares? Then go, plunge yourself in the Godhead's deepest sea; be lost in his immensity; and you shall come forth as from a couch of rest, refreshed and invigorated. I know nothing which can so comfort the soul; so calm the swelling billows of grief and sorrow; so speak peace to the winds of trial, as a devout musing upon the subject of the Godhead."

Apache Blessing

may the sun bring you new energy by day,
may the moon softly restore you by night,
may the rain wash away your worries,
may the breeze blow new strength into your being.
may you walk gently through the world and know
its beauty all the days of your life.
6月2日

dance like this

Dance Like This lyrics


Artist - Dirty Dancing - Havana Nights soundtrack


Album - Dirty Dancing - Havana Nights


Lyrics - Dance Like This



I ain't come to fight tonight! Too many ladies up in here tonight!
(Everybody report to the dance floor, PLEASE!! Grab a girl)

I never really knew that she could dance like this..
She makes her man wanna speak spanish..
Como se llama? Bonita. Mi casa, su casa.

When you move youve got me hypnotized, especially when I look into his eyes.
Hey papi I wanna see you do the dance to the Conga.

Hey girl I can see your body moving (and it's driving me crazy),
And I didn't have the slightest idea (until i saw you dancing).
And when you walk up on the dance floor nobody cannot ignore the way you move body, girl.
And everythings so unexpected the way you already left it, so you can keep on shaking it.

Baila la calle de noche, baila la calle de dia.
Baila la calle de noche, baila la calle de dia.

I never really knew that she could dance like this..
She makes her man wanna speak spanish..
Como se llama? Bonita. Mi casa, su casa.

When you move youve got me hypnotized, especially when I look into his eyes.
Hey papi I wanna see you do the dance to the Conga.

Hey boy now that i see all your rhythm,
I'm in a state of shock now, the way
I can see you body moving and
I don't want you to stop now.
I like the way you approach me so sensually, you got me in a daze boy.
I can't ignore the way you dance and you got me in a trance and....
I can't explain..... it.

Baila la calle de noche, baila la calle de dia.
Baila la calle de noche, baila la calle de dia.

I never really knew that she could dance like this..
She makes her man wanna speak spanish..(spanish)
Como se llama? (Si)Bonita.(Si) Mi casa, su casa. (yeah)

When you move you got me hypnotized, especially when I look into his eyes.
Hey papi I wanna see you do the dance to the Conga.

Senorita, feel the Conga, let me see you move like you come from Havana.
Oh...I didn't know you did it like that..
Hey you papi don't you stop it, wanna see you move your body.
Oh...I didn't know you did it like that..

Baila la calle de noche, baila la calle de dia.
Baila la calle de noche, baila la calle de dia.

I never really knew that she could dance like this..
She makes her man wanna speak spanish..
Como se llama? Bonita. Mi casa, su casa.

When you move youve got me hypnotized, especially when I look into his eyes.
Hey papi I wanna see you do the dance to the Conga.

Baila la calle de noche, baila la calle de dia.
Baila la calle de noche, baila la calle de dia.
Baila la calle de noche, baila la calle de dia.
(Baila conmigo)
Baila la calle de noche, baila la calle de dia.
(Baila conmigo)

I never really knew that she could dance like this..
(Baila conmigo)
She makes her man wanna speak spanish..
(Baila conmigo)
Como se llama?(Si) Bonita. (Si)Mi casa, su casa.

When you move youve got me hypnotized, especially when I look into his eyes.
Hey papi (si) I wanna see you do the dance to the Conga.

I never really knew that she could dance like this..
She makes her man wanna speak spanish..
Como se llama?(si) Bonita.(si) Mi casa, su casa.

When you move youve got me hypnotized, especially when I look into his eyes.
Hey papi I wanna see you do the dance to the Conga.

Oh...Oh.....Oh....Oh.....Oh.....

5月6日

A moving love story

2002年1月 www.6park.com

电话响了,一场大梦被惊醒。 www.6park.com

“喂?谁呀”我悃倦的不耐烦。 www.6park.com

"梁子?" 电话里传来了女人急促的声音. www.6park.com

“你现在能不能过来一下”。 www.6park.com

“干吗?” www.6park.com

“Matt 有麻烦了,我都急哭了!!” 女人的声音带着哭腔。 www.6park.com

“恩,好。十分钟到。” 我骨碌起来,慌忙穿上衣服,我这个人,着急起来容易慌乱,刚下楼发现穿的是拖鞋,而且没带车钥匙,又马上返回去,清醒了不少。 www.6park.com

一路无话,好在现在不堵车。到她家,敲门,她开门的时候我看见了一个沧桑的小女人,有些心疼。 www.6park.com

“怎么了,说,别着急。” 呵呵,我还有脸叫别人别着急,自己这么糗(刚才在路上发现没洗脸,没刷牙,头发绝对tm爆炸式,跟鬼似的). www.6park.com

“Matt 昨天晚上下工回家和酒鬼打起来了,他刚才给我在网上留言,说现在扣在警察局,怎么办呀,会不会有什么事?警察会不会打他?他英语那么差,别人说什么也听不懂,想 www.6park.com

解释都解释不了。。。。。。”她一串连珠炮,说着眼圈又红了。 www.6park.com

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。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。说话的女人叫小荷,是Matt的女朋友.Matt,小荷还有我是高中就认识的朋友,一起玩到大。说实话,和小荷交朋友完全是因为matt,因为 www.6park.com


matt这个淫贼喜欢人家,又装斯文,所以那时侯拉着我当借口约人家出来,说是什么老同学叙旧。时间长了就泡到手了。后来我去英国留学,一年后matt不知道犯什么病,辞去了一家公司的销售助理,非叫着也要出国留学。选来选去选到了英国,还非要找我所在的学校,说一起读有效率,我说你不是读书的材料,回家种田吧。他说你大爷的,你能读为什么我不能读?后来通过自己不懈的努力,终于在预科第一年的时候挂了4门。。。。。。哎,我还能说什么。 www.6park.com


小荷是那种不折不扣的“逆来顺受”型(除了对爱情的态度),只要老公做了决定,屁颠的跟着高兴还给当参谋。我那会和她说,等matt去了国外,天天看着金发碧眼,“波涛汹涌”的外国mm,谁还记得你这个小柴禾妞?她眨了眨她的大眼睛,幼稚的说她会每天遥控他的。于是天天在网络上用尽美人计,比如动不动就拍个火辣妖艳的,或者文静可爱的淑 www.6park.com


女照片给matt发过去,满是爱情洋溢之词。若matt几天没在网上出现,她就气的发疯,电话打过去开骂,或者把我拎过去审问,拷问我他在外面是不是有女人。她通常要自己设一个假想敌,然后强迫和我研究应对方案与策略,她能把男人分析的头头是道,大卸八块,简直是剖析的体无完肤,引用星座,属相,性格特点等诸多原理来说明男人需要积极的引导和严酷的高压管制。 www.6park.com

我在她面前不多说话,多数情况下只是一个听众而已。这次看着她的神情,明白了一个女人对自己男人的牵挂是比一个男人对女人的牵挂更有表现力的,男人除非失恋,要不不会哭的。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。 www.6park.com

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“他在警察局给你上qq留言?不是吧?”我有些疑惑。 www.6park.com

“你看呀。。。”她说着把笔记本放在我眼前,“你看,从这开始。。。“老婆,我被扣了,不知道会发生什么事情。。。。。。我现在很想你。。真的是一时冲动,是他们先挑衅的”。。。。。。。。”。 www.6park.com

“恩,不会有事的,英国警察还是比较公正的,matt绝不会先动手,象那些酒鬼晚上动不动就fucking chinese的,本来就该揍,到局子里也要看谁先招事吧。一个人去打一帮人, www.6park.com


主动攻击?你相信吗?他以为自己是蜘蛛人?靠,绝对是他们喝多了欺负matt,matt下手黑,估计干起来了,没事,放心好了。。。”我义愤填膺的说。 www.6park.com

我的话多少稳定了下她的情绪,她若有所思的点点头,眼神迷惘。我看见她的眼睛,心理也有种伤感。 www.6park.com

“放心吧,他有时候不愿意和你说的话会和我说的,我晚上给他去个电话。” www.6park.com

“恩。。。。”她呆呆的点点头,“你说她会没事的是吧?。。。。” www.6park.com

“呵呵,肯定的,这么大人了。。。。”我敷衍着。 www.6park.com

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2002年2月,一个星期日 www.6park.com

“梁子,matt找到新工作了”电话里,小荷高兴的说。 www.6park.com

“不会是回天园刷碗了吧?” 我笑着说。 www.6park.com

“啊?你怎么知道?”她问。 www.6park.com

“呵呵,天园是一个北京老板开的,我当初和他一起在在那打工,老板人不错。” www.6park.com

“对呀,对呀!matt说一天能挣35磅,还可以在那里吃饭呢。”她好象很满足 www.6park.com

“嘿嘿,比过去长了5磅,不错。”我说。 www.6park.com

“可是刷碗很累的。。。。。他会吃不消的。。。。。”她又开始担心了 www.6park.com

“没事的,男人有力气,刷几个碗再喊累我真瞧不起他,呵呵”我开玩笑的说。 www.6park.com

“我觉得和老板处好关系最重要,英国那种地方,我不知道是不是也这样,不过刷碗这么简单的事情,matt一定没问题!”她说。 www.6park.com

“是呀,要是女老板,不如就卖身给她,工资一定比别人高!哈哈”我调侃着。 www.6park.com

“切。。。。你比我们家matt素质低得不是一星半点!!!”她笑了。 www.6park.com

“就是就是,我本来也是下里巴人,全世界就他阳春白雪。。” www.6park.com

“呵呵,没事了。我挂了,有事再给你打。” www.6park.com

“好!” www.6park.com

挂了电话,我沉思好久。 www.6park.com


2002年5月 www.6park.com

之前我因为工作太忙,没怎么去看小荷,只记得她妈妈说她被公司炒了,一天下午,我推了一个庆功酒会,想去她家看看。 www.6park.com

一进屋,看见小荷坐在沙发上看动画片,抱着一大桶冰淇淋,一勺一勺的往嘴里放。 www.6park.com

“最近挺好的?”我放下背包,找个地方坐下来,看着她。 www.6park.com

“恩,挺好的。”她的视线没有脱离电视。 www.6park.com

“怎么了,工作干着不顺心?”“恩,我被炒了你知道吗?” www.6park.com

“啊?为什么?”我装做不知道。 www.6park.com

“哈哈,我也不知道。。。。老板说你以后不用来了”她忽然看着我,大笑,勺子都掉到地上了。 www.6park.com

“。。。。。。。你平时上班都做什么?” www.6park.com

“和matt聊天,他不在线就给他发email,还有给他打电话。。。”他忽然神秘的底下头“我和你说,用公司的电话打长途真的好爽。。。现在都没人发现过。” www.6park.com

“呵呵,恩,省钱。。。”我不想再说什么。 www.6park.com

“对了,matt买车了,现在送外卖呢,再也不用刷碗了!!”她兴高采烈的说, www.6park.com

“呵呵,好呀,不过说实话你也不要把注意力都放在他身上,自己的生活也要过呀。”我沉沉的说。 www.6park.com

“恩。。。还有,你知道吗,matt给我留言说今年暑假回来!”她没有在听我说话。 www.6park.com

“恩,好呀。不过他暑假不回来可以打工,回来一次也不便宜的!” www.6park.com

“我给他挣钱,买机票!” www.6park.com

“你们俩真叫人羡慕,呵呵。”我本来想说你都没工作了,拿什么挣钱,但是话到嘴边上的时候突然哽住了。 www.6park.com

陪她看了两个小时的机器猫,发现她现在怎么变的这么爱笑,不好笑的也笑。这些东西是可以给她带来内心的舒缓与快乐吗?不知道。我看着她好象在看一个人形木偶,无论是笑和专注都象有人操控了一样。 www.6park.com

我知道她爸最近身体不太好,住院了,准备去看看。 www.6park.com

“你玩吧,我先撤了。”我起身准备走,她也没什么反映,说了一句“好。”然后继续看着电视屏幕。 www.6park.com

到了医院,看见她的父母,两个老人和我聊了好久,到深情处老泪纵横。。。。。。。他们是为孩子操心呀。。。 www.6park.com

对了,matt暑假没有回来,象上个暑假一样,明明说好了,却不露面。 www.6park.com


2002年6月
上午11,12点的样子,我没起床,因为昨天喝高了,班也没上。迷迷糊糊的时候忽然听到有谁把屋子里东西碰到了,慌忙睁开眼睛,只见一个穿的象花蝴蝶的人破门而入。我有点惊,下意识的把被子团到胸前。(没穿衣服) www.6park.com

那人冲到我面前,“嘿!”大喊一声,吓我一跳。 www.6park.com

仔细一看原来是小荷。 www.6park.com

“你,你要干吗?”我恐惧的问。 www.6park.com

她哈哈大笑,“走,下楼吃饭去?” www.6park.com


“啊?吃饭?”我莫名其妙。她说走,快点,然后不由分说,拉着我就往外走。我还在床上,叫她猛的给拉到了地上。妈的,这么大劲! www.6park.com

“不是,吃什么饭呀,我睡觉呢。。。。。别拉,别拉, 衣服,我得穿衣服,靠,等会,别...别着急。。。。” www.6park.com


我们坐在楼下饭馆的时候我才仔细的打量起今天眼前的小荷。精致的无关,鲜艳的衣装,我最欣赏的乌黑长法,我甚至注意到她精巧的耳环,还有眼睛上淡淡的眼影,她是美丽的,任何一个男人都会心动,我也是。 www.6park.com

“说吧,因为什么事情?”我问 www.6park.com

“嘻嘻,你知道matt学习差,英语差对吧?”她笑着问我。 www.6park.com

“没错,他脖子上长了一块石头,怎么了?”我又问。 www.6park.com

“他昨天网上说考上大学了,预科成绩都过了!我们一起庆祝一下!” www.6park.com

“哦。。。。好呀,对于他这种百里挑一的人才,是应该庆祝!哈哈!”我调整着自己的困顿和心情,有意的迎合小荷。 www.6park.com

“我们今天吃海鲜!”她高兴的说,“服务员,服务员。。。。” www.6park.com

我偷偷看了眼钱包,还剩400,奶奶的,今天全砸这吧。 www.6park.com

这顿饭吃的很high,我看着那龙虾的腿,心中默默的计算着一条腿的成本价格和它的销售价格,如果成本低的话,一条腿的利润是多少呢?10条呢。。。。草,脑子好乱。 www.6park.com

不想了,今天有佳人相伴,千金散去也值。 www.6park.com

晚上我送她回家,她喝多了。吐我一身。我把她放在床上安置好,准备离开。忽然发现她的电脑开着,一个qq的头像在闪,我知道那个头像是matt,我没有点,等她明天早上醒来自己看吧。 www.6park.com

回头看着她沉睡的脸,好美,或者说好凄美。一个为了爱情苦苦挣扎的女人,一个愿意拿美丽青春来忍受蹉跎等待的女人。 www.6park.com

我静静的关上门,离开,然后去酒吧把自己灌醉。。。。。。。。。。。。 www.6park.com


转眼三年,我和她之间的故事就这样发生着。是的,我不能否认,我和小荷的话题永远是围绕着matt来产生,所有快乐,悲伤,争执,沉默都是因为matt,我最好的朋友。但是我知道,我很喜欢小荷。三年了,我是小荷唯一的倾诉对象,我明白她的心里只有一个人,这个人不是我。感谢matt,我可以离她很近,我够了。这三年里,我掉进了一个轮回,一个永远重复的无底洞,我不知道什么时候能熬出头。每当看见她兴高采烈或是忧心冲冲的和我讲述matt的时候,我的内心充满挣扎与煎熬,或者是负罪感,或是一种对没有人可以理解的计划的决心。同样的故事,同样的情节,同样的对话,同样的喜怒哀乐,甚至同样的顺序。就象看一个已经看了100遍的电影,哪里悲伤,哪里快乐我都清楚,然而,电影院的大门被锁了,我无法逃出去。。。。。。 www.6park.com


可是后来,2005年,一个叫罗平的男孩子闯进了她的生活。这个男孩子很帅,很执著,他追了小荷很久。起初我和她都很反感这个人,我说就是一个小白脸一个!她说罗平的肩膀根本不能和matt比。我们经常拿这个执著的年轻人开玩笑,有时候我的玩笑是因为嫉妒他,他可以光明正大的追求自己爱的女孩,可我不行。 www.6park.com


2006年3月,我结婚了,妻是我中学的同学,在聚会上见到的,我追的她,也许是因为她有和小荷一样明亮的眼睛。婚礼上请了很多人,但是没有请小荷。 www.6park.com

matt一直没有回来,但是只要她想matt了,我都会接到她的电话。只是最近发现,她给我打电话的次数越来越少,我不愿意去猜测是不是和罗平有关系,但是我觉得小荷在变心 www.6park.com

------其实这是我既害怕,又期望的结果,只是我不能想象故事的结尾是个什么样子。 www.6park.com

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2006年6月,我从南京出差回来没有多久,小荷给我打电话。 www.6park.com

“梁子。” www.6park.com

“恩?” www.6park.com

“来我家吧,我有事情想和你说。” www.6park.com

“好。。。。”我答道。 www.6park.com

开开门,看见她穿了一件黑色的礼服,很典雅,很安静的坐在屋子里。 www.6park.com

“怎么了?说。”我问。 www.6park.com

他沉默了一会,幽幽的说:“明天我们去机场接matt吧。他说他明天回来。。。” www.6park.com

“恩?你说什么?”我心理一颤,打了个机灵 www.6park.com

“他不是很早就说了吗?”小荷看着我,象是在问我,又象是默念。我不知所措,手上的香烟烧到了皮肤才知道我们对视了很久,我不知道是不是从她眼睛里看到了什么东西, 我也不知道她是不是也想在我眼睛里找到什么东西。 www.6park.com

她慢慢的低下头,喃喃到:“走了这么久,该回来了。” www.6park.com


第二天,我们很早来到了机场,机场里人来人往,我查了飞机的航班,下午才能到。 www.6park.com

“你确定他今天回来?” 我问,她不说话,眼睛死死的盯着乘客出口,好象要把matt揪出来一样。 www.6park.com

飞机降落的时间到了,没有看见matt。 www.6park.com

几个小时过去了,还是没有 www.6park.com

“你饿不饿,想吃东西吗?”我问,她还是沉默。 www.6park.com

就这样我们一直等到了,晚上,凌晨。。。。。看着来无数接机的人和下飞机的人拥抱,寒暄,握手,一起离开。看着机场工作人员的轮换。却始终没有看见matt的身影。 www.6park.com


“许是你看错日子了,我们先回去怎么样?”我说。 www.6park.com

她一直站着,几乎没有换过姿势。 www.6park.com


午夜,不知道什么时候,她慢慢的垂下头。 双手捂面,我走进她,发现泪水早已经花了她的妆。也许是太累的缘故,她一下子摊在我的怀里,我扶着她。 www.6park.com

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她象打了强心剂一样大把的抓着我的衣服,然后猛捶我的胸口,我好象看见一个被神魔附体的女人苏醒了。 www.6park.com

她泪留满面,大声的号哭起来。 www.6park.com

她撕心裂肺的喊着,象沉积了很久的火山终于爆发: www.6park.com

是的,我听见了那令人心碎的哭喊,我听见了,一个终结轮回的呼喊。 www.6park.com


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。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。 www.6park.com

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“matt,你这个混蛋,你骗我,你为什么要骗我呀?!。。。我一直在等你,你知道吗?我知道你死了,我不是疯子,我不是傻子呀!!!!可是,你让我怎么面对?怎么去面对!?!我求你告诉我怎么做,你教我,你教我呀。。。。。。。” www.6park.com

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机场里零星的人站住,看过来。 www.6park.com


这一刻,时间停止了。她没有力气,晕倒在我怀里,我怔住,抱着她。 www.6park.com


静止。。。。。 www.6park.com


没有一点声音的静止。 www.6park.com


也许除了我的心跳,连大脑都是一片空白。 www.6park.com


我知道,这是定在我心里的一幕。永远也不会抹去。这是象撕纸一样在我心里撕了个口子,再让寒彻的大风打到那个口子里。 www.6park.com


我知道,她的心里一直以来都有一个身不见底的血洞,她一直试图来遮盖住,但是从没有成功过。从没有。 www.6park.com


我知道,终于要结束了。。。。。因为命运是这么安排的。 www.6park.com

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。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。 www.6park.com

2001年,因为车祸,matt死了。 www.6park.com


就在他死的前一个晚上,他和她在网上聊天。 www.6park.com


小荷会在每年的不同时间和我谈固定的事情,1月是和酒鬼打架,2月份是matt在天园做刷碗工,5月份是说他暑假要回国,买车了在送外卖。6月是他知道考试成绩。 www.6park.com

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这是matt在2001年经历的事情,只是6月,他没有回来。。。。 www.6park.com


小荷一直用matt的qq和自己留言甚至交谈,qq的密码她是知道的,是小荷的名字拼音。 www.6park.com


小荷从来没有用单位的电话打过国际长途,她只是对着忙音说话。 www.6park.com


我知道所有的事情,我一直在帮她编这个故事,我不敢揭穿她。 www.6park.com

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她最终没能骗过自己。。。。。。 www.6park.com

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后来,小荷还是接受了罗平,最近一直在筹办婚礼,几天前的一个晚上她忽然打电话问我:“你说,matt会不会怪我没有等他。。。。” www.6park.com


我什么也没说,拔了电话线。(完) www

4月24日

Happy Birthday!

 My officemate sent the following words to me on my b-day. They are very inspiring...Check it out.
 
God has made you wonderfully
"...I am fearfully and wonderfully made;your works are wonderful,I know that full well."
Psalm 139:14
"God saw every thing that He had made, and, behold, it was very good..."
Genesis 1:31
 
And He has a plan for your life
"For I know the plans I have for you,"declares the LORD,
"plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
Jeremiah 29:11
 
Bible tells that God will give you what is good
"Yes, the LORD will give what is good..."
Psalm 85:12
 
He wants for you to rejoice and to be filled with all blessings He has for you
"Rejoice in the LORD always: and again I say, Rejoice."
Philippians 4:4
"...In Your presence is fullness of joy..."
Psalm 16:11
 
May the sunshine from above brighten your way
May the peace of God's presence be yours every day
May faith be your anchor, hope lights your heart
And may you know all the joys His blessings impart
 
 
When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling.
Live your life so that when you die, you are the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.
 
4月20日

Best Birthday Wishes!

Indulge. Celebrate. It’s your party. The world is your oyster. This tiny treasury says it all: Happy Birthday!

Another birthday? Great! No one can fault you on this one day of the year for thinking only of yourself-so do it. If someone asks you what you’d like, be honest-tell them just exactly what you desire, sit back, and let it happen. Why offer to help? It’s your birthday. Some holidays are about sharing community, and family. But not birthdays. Birthdays are personal celebrations with an extra added attraction: presents. Why pretend that you don’t want any? Celebrate yourself. And for crying out loud, eat that second piece of cake. Or is that your third…? No matter. Happy birthday.

The first half of life consists of the capacity to enjoy without the chance; the last half consists of the chance without the capacity. What is an adult? A child blown up by age.

It is not the years in your life but the life in your years that counts.

Youth supplies us with the colors, age with canvas.

The great thing about getting older is that you don’t lose all of the other ages you’ve been.

After a certain age, the more one becomes oneself, the more obvious family traits become.

Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards.

A diplomat is a man who always remembers a woman’s birthday but never remembers her age.

Youth is a gift of nature, but age is a work of art.

Wrinkles should merely indicate where smiles have been.

The secret of life is enjoying the passage of time.

I promise to keep on living as though I expected to live forever. Nobody grows old by merely living a number of years. People grow old only by deserting their ideals. Years may wrinkle the skin, but to give up interest wrinkles the soul.

Within, I do not find wrinkles and used heart, but unspent youth.

Age is something that doesn’t matter, unless you are a cheese.

We turn not older with years, but newer everyday.

Everything that’s fun is either illegal, immoral, or fattening.

Whatever the past has gone, the best is always yet to come.

Don’t look back. Something may be gaining on you.

It is never too late to be what you might have been.

Life is but an endless series of experiments.

From the child you can learn three things. He is merry for no particular reason; never for a moment is he idle; when he needs something, he demands it vigorously.

The trick to grown-up is to make the effort to recapture what we knew automatically as children.

No wise man ever wished to be younger.

The greatest mistake you can make in life is to be continually fearing you will make one.

It is better to wear out than to rust out.

That best portion of a good man’s life, His little, nameless, unremembered acts of kindness and of love.

Attitude is everything.

If you have much, give of your wealth, if you have little, give of your heart.

When grace is joined with wrinkles, it is adorable.

Life is a gift, given in trust-like a child.

The secret of staying young is to live honestly, eat slowly, and lie about your age.

Life is a great bundle of little things.

Birthdays are feathers in the broad wing of time.

Hope for the best. Expect the worst. Life is a play. We’re unrehearsed.

On the whole, human beings want to be good, but not too good and not quite all of the time.

You only live once-but if you work it right, once is enough.

 

4月9日

I am that second mouse

Two little mice fell in a bucket of cream. The first mouse quickly gave 
up and drowned. The second mouse, wouldn't quit. He struggled so hard th
at eventually he churned that cream into butter and crawled out. As of t
his moment, I am that second mouse.  
4月3日

You Raise Me Up

You Raise Me Up
Josh Groban

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary
When troubles come and my heart burdened be
Then I am still and wait here in the silence
Until you come and sit awhile with me

You raise me up so I can stand on mountains
You raise me up to walk on stormy seas
I am strong when I am on your shoulders
You raise me up to more than I can be (Repeat)

There is no life - no life without its hunger
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly
But when you come and I am filled with wonder
Sometimes I think I glimpse eternity.

You raise me up so I can stand on mountains
You raise me up to walk on stormy seas
I am strong when I am on your shoulders
You raise me up to more than I can be (Repeat)

3月31日

Shakespeare

Sonnets of William Shakespeare-Sonnet 114

Or whether doth my mind, being crown'd with you,
Drink up the monarch's plague, this flattery?
Or whether shall I say, mine eye saith true,
And that your love taught it this alchemy,
To make of monsters and things indigest
Such cherubins as your sweet self resemble,
Creating every bad a perfect best,
As fast as objects to his beams assemble?
O,'tis the first; 'tis flattery in my seeing,
And my great mind most kingly drinks it up:
Mine eye well knows what with his gust is 'greeing,
And to his palate doth prepare the cup:
If it be poison'd, 'tis the lesser sin
That mine eye loves it and doth first begin.

是否我的心,既把你当王冠戴,
喝过帝王们的鸩毒--自我阿谀?
还是我该说,我眼睛说的全对,
因为你的爱教会它这炼金术,
使它能够把一切蛇神和牛鬼
转化为和你一样柔媚的天婴,
把每个丑恶改造成尽善尽美,
只要事物在它的柔辉下现形?
哦,是前者;是眼睛的自我陶醉,
我伟大的心灵把它一口喝尽:
眼睛晓得投合我心灵的口味,
为它准备好这杯可口的毒饮。
尽管杯中有毒,罪过总比较轻,
因为先爱上它的是我的眼睛。

3月12日

key

面对人生的选择,我们往往不知道它的全部后果,有的时候,我们自以为知道。这些选择所带来不仅仅是不同的人生际遇、起承转合、邂逅离别,更会造就不同的我们自己。生命的经验又是如此的不可传递,我们会本能地拒绝那些与我们憧憬不同的告诫,忽略那些与我们预期不同的讯息。每一个收获都有它的代价。区分诱惑和机遇,并不容易,伊甸园里的蛇永远在人类周围徘徊。从无知的快乐到无欲无求的满足之间没有显而易见的通径,绝大多数人都走不到终点。虚荣,是比物欲更大的敌人;自信,则是最不堪一击的堡垒。最忠实的历史也只能留下支离破碎的片断,因果是永恒的迷雾,或许和存在一样,只是一种假设。征服时间与空间似乎是所有生命的终极目的,占有是共同的基因。情感,试图用超越来为征服做最后的努力,却没有任何成功的把握。希望,为生存的真相披上温情脉脉的面纱;好奇心,是我们体内的潘多拉密码.
3月2日

好坏爱情

好的爱情和坏的爱情是很容易分辨出来的。好的爱情使你的世界变得广阔,如同在一片一望无际的草原上漫步。坏的爱情使你的世界愈来愈狭窄,最后只剩下屋檐下一片可以避雨的方寸地。好的爱情是你透过一个人看到世界。坏的爱情是你为了一个人舍弃世界。好的爱情,能够让本来没有理想没有大志的你,变得有理想和大志,本来偏激的你变得包容,本来骄傲的你变得谦逊,本来自私的你变得肯为人设想,本来没有安全感的你,变得不再惧怕。坏的爱情与这一切全然相反,你唯一可见的将来就是爱情,没有别的可恋。好的爱情让你时刻反省自己付出的够不够多,使你不害怕老去,因为即使年华老去,你也不会失去对方。你不会担心十年后,你们的步伐不一致,因为你们携手漫步在草原上,而不是在屋檐下避雨。
 
愿所有有情人拥有好的爱情。
2月19日

在十字路口,我拣到了爱情[转载]

我很喜欢玩一个游戏。在一个十字路口,停下,闭眼,然后数数。从一数到一百,然后睁开眼睛,如果眼前正好有一个人走过,那我就会一直跟着他走,直到下一个十字路口。然后重复。
这个游戏是我一个网上的网友告诉我的。他叫迷茫人生。
他常对我说,他觉得自己好寂寞,常常是一个人出门,在街上也是一个人孤伶伶的走。没有目的地,没有想到达的地方。所以,他常常会在一个十字路口,停下,闭眼,然后数数。从一数到一百,然后睁开眼睛,如果眼前有人走过,那跟着他走,直到下一个十字路口。然后重复。
我问他,[你不怕迷路吗?]
他说,[不怕,反正每一条路对我来说,都是陌生的。]他说他是一个习惯流浪的人,从一个城市流浪到另一个城市。
我对他说,[为何你不能停下你的脚步,好好的去认识一条路呢?也许,会有一条路能让你觉得不陌生呢?]
他发了一个无奈的表情给我,说,[我走了这么多个城市,可我还没有找到一条可以让我感到熟悉的路。]
那天过后,我也爱上了这个游戏。
我走过了一个又一个十字路口,在一个又一个的人身后,走向一条又一条陌生的路。水泥路,黄泥路,柏油路。一条又一条,我看见了许许多多以前没有发现的风景。
今天,我又玩起了这个游戏。我站在十字路口,闭上了眼睛,正当我数到56下时,我感觉到有一个人走到了我的身边。
[你是不是要过马路?我带你过去吧。]
是一个男生的声音,声音很低沉,像一杯醇酒。
没等我反应过来,我的手就被他牢牢的握在了手中。
他的温度透过手掌传来,热热的,我的手心冒出了汗。
我抬起头,他一直在走,我只能看见他的背影。不高,偏瘦,有一个宽厚的背肌。
就这样,我被他牵着过了马路。
[到了。]他转过身,望进我的眼。
我笑了,眼中带着笑。
从他眼中,我知道他发现自己犯了个错误。
[你,能看见?]他惊惶失措的样子很可笑,所以我笑了。
[你有一张好看的脸。]我笑着说。
[对不起,我看见你一直站在那里,我还以为……]
我的手一直被他握着,手心里的热度依然。
也许是我一直盯着手看,他低下头,看见了我们握在一起的手,然后飞快的放开了。
[你,为什么要一直站在那里。]他的脸红了。
[我在做游戏。]他放开了我的手,可我手心还依然留有他的温度。
[做游戏?]他用一种怪异的眼光看了我一眼,我被他的样子逗笑了。
[我在做一个很好玩的游戏,你要不要和我一起玩?]我没有思考,就说了出来,说完后,我既担心他会以为我是傻瓜,又希望他会答应。
他想了一下,然后说,[好。]很幸运,他答应了。
就这样,我让他闭上了眼睛,然后我们一起数数,数到一百时,我们同时睁开眼,眼前出现了一个穿着时髦的女士。我们两个偷偷的交换了眼神,然后跟在了那个女士的后面。
我们边走边聊天,聊我们所看见的事物,聊我们从小时候到现在的事,聊我们未来打算的事。就在我们走过了三个十字路口时,我们已经从一个陌生人变成一个仿佛相知多年的知已。
我们在第六个十字路口分手,交换了电话,邮箱,QQ号码。然后,说声再见,转身,离开。
晚上,我一直握着我的手机,我多希望能接到他的来电啊。我也曾想过打电话给他,但我却放不下我那可笑的矜持。
就在我第35次祈祷后,我的手机响起了,是他!
我深呼吸一口气,然后按下接听键。
[喂。]很好,没有颤抖。
[喂,是我。]在电话中,他的声音似乎更低沉了。
[有什么事吗?]说完后,我就害怕了,不知道他会不会就此挂了电话呢?
[今天,我和你说再见后,我发现我丢了一件东西了。不知道你有没有看见?]
[你丢什么东西了?是不是很重要的?]?]他的声音有一点点抖,我想,那件东西对他来说一定很重要吧。
[对我来说,那东西很重要。]丢了重要的东西,他一定很着急吧。
[你说说是什么东西,也许我会想起在哪里丢的。]
[我,丢了我的爱情。]他说的很慢,似乎怕我听不清楚。
我的心,跳得飞快。久久不能话语。
[对不起,请问你有拣到我的爱情吗?]从电话声中那抖音,我可以想像他的脸是如何的红。
而在电话的这端,我笑了。
[是的,我在十字路口,拣到了一个爱情……]
11月16日

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Inspiring Quotations

I don't know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody.

----Bill Cosby

Look at a day when you are supremely satisfied at the end. It's not a day when you lounge around doing nothing, it's when you've had everything to do and you've done it!

--Margaret Thatcher

When faced with a challenge, look for a way, not a way out."

---David Weatherford

For every person who doubts you, tell you you will fail, try twice as hard to prove them wrong.

---Unknown

There are some things in life that you are not meant to be. Don't waste your time and tears trying to be them. Reach for the things you are meant to be, and you will reach your destiny.

---Sarah Normile

The sooner I fall behind, the more time I have to catch up.

---Unknown

Those who follow the crowd are quickly lost in it

We have the power to shrink our dreams to fit reality or the power to stretch our reality to fit our dreams.

Energy and persistence conquer all things.

----Benjamin Franklin

Far better is it to dare mighty things, to win glorius triumphs, even though checkered by failure... than to rank with those poor spirits who neither enjoy nor suffer much, because they live in a gray twilight that knows not victory nor defeat.

----Theodore Roosevelt

If you believe you can, you probably can. If you believe you won't, you most assuredly won't. Belief is the ignition switch that gets you off the launching pad.

----Denis Waitley

 

Happiness can be defined, in part at least, as the fruit of the desire and ability to sacrifice what we want now for what we want eventually.

---Stephen Covey

There is one quality that one must possess to win, and that is definiteness of purpose, the knowledge of what one wants, and a burning desire to possess it.

- Napoleon Hill

We judge ourselves by what we feel capable of doing, while others judge us by what we have already done.

- Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

People are always blaming their circumstances for what they are. I don't believe in circumstances. The people who get on in this world are the people who get up and look for the circumstances they want, and if they can't find them, make them.

- George Bernard Sha

You are what you think about all day long.

- Dr. Robert Schuller

Start by doing what's necessary; then do what's possible; and suddenly you are doing the impossible.

- St. Francis of Assisi

Nothing in the world can take the place of persistence. Talent will not; nothing is more common than unsuccessful men with talent. Genius will not; unrewarded genius is almost a proverb. Education will not; the world is full of educated derelicts. Persistence and determination alone are omnipotent.

- Calvin Coolidge

Let our advance worrying become advance thinking and planning.

- Winston Churchill

I am a slow walker, but I never walk backwards.

- Abraham Lincoln

What keeps so many people back is simply unwillingness to pay the price, to make the exertion, the effort to sacrifice their ease and comfort.

- Orison Swett Marden

I've missed more than 9000 shots in my career. I've lost almost 300 games. 26 times, I've been trusted to take the game winning shot and missed. I've failed over and over and over again in my life. And that is why I succeed.

- Michael Jordan

What we think, or what we know, or what we believe, is in the end, of little consequence. The only thing of consequence is what we do.

- John Ruskin